Why

When I kicked off this blog twas simply because i needed a place to vocalise some of the things in my life. It was not a cry for attention it was not me reaching out for a helping hand, it certainly was not for anything less or more than as an outlet for me.

Over the months, total strangers have left comments, the majority of them touching that people cared enough to just say something positive.

No one knows what really goes on and no life runs as well as the next. Shit happens. What really annoys me though are the anonymous comments people leave with that 'holier than thou attitude'.

Most of us should consider ourselves fortunate that our lives run in a mediocre fashion, that the day is pretty much the same as what it was yesterday and will be tomorrow. But, the world being what the world is, some of us get caught in things that, well are things.

My own life has not been the perfect one, it has had its moments. I realise that there are hoards of well meaning people out there, who kind of have an idea of how the world should be, according to them.

I am going through a trying period in my life - not the first, not the last but certainly one that is draining me and wearing me down. By everyone book, what I am thinking, feeling, contemplating is wrong, is not acceptable and will as someone put it, provide many with much to talk about over coffee after dinner on a slow night.

If it happens.

Right now I don't know where I stand. All I can say is that I am pulled in two directions - one which is so 'wrong' and yet so right and the other which is 'right but wrong.

I don't need advice... I know all the arguments for and against, I know what is right, what is not, what is acceptable and what society accepts - I am not stupid for crying out loud.

Somewhere, somehow there must be a place where all will be well.